Generally, I would spend some time listening and learning stories from other people, gathering wisdom from the greater person and since I am vibin and learning.
To start this, How great would it be, to have someone ride or die so you don't even have to worry about anything when you get the W. Find my ride or die.
I always wanted to explore multiple journeys in my life to see whether dreams come true. Been in depression and getting the W after hardwork and persistence, start building up my own reputation, and just rising from being a loser was my journey. However, The one thing that I want my kids to have the privilege to explore is "Being successful doing something that you like, doesn't matter what it is" I want to leave that dream to my kids.
The thing that makes me really want a family is because family is about ride or die. Similarly, for my kids and as a kid to my mum. I don't care whether my mum is successful or not because at the end of the day I just want mummy. In a similar way, I want to find the right girl that I would knew straight away bam! “I want to marry you”. I wouldn’t care if it is the first date. If I knew she is the one, I will let her know right away, “Yup! I can stop searching, because I know you are the one and I want to marry you” I will say those words.
It is true that I can't control finding the girl I want to marry. I just have to be open to meeting people and wait for the right person. Like I said, How great can it be to have someone to fall for and someone to felt great about; that you know its ride or die because she believes in me since Day 1 and not because I am successful.
For the past 11 months, me thinking “I need a W before meeting the right person is just my ego”. Just a man’s useless stupid bullshit. The truth is, by the time I get the W. I will have all the things in a material standpoint but no one lying beside my bed, no kids spending Chinese new year or Christmas with me.
Success for me right now is wife, kids and winning. I have an ambition, but I want ambition with true purpose. My ambition is, I want to win! I want to fuck them up so bad! Show me disrespect and I’ll make you swallow your words. Right now, I want to do this but for my kids. I mean I am giving my kids the freedom to pursue their dreams, whatever they like to do, and I want to achieve that. That’s why I am at Christchurch right now.
I believe that the right moment will comes naturally, I am not stressing out. Feel like I should start being more open to meeting more people and not putting walls around myself like I used to.
The one thing that I like to change also starting from now is. There is the Chinese saying that said “there is always a mountain higher than other”. If I constantly judge myself based on other people, I will always fall short, because there will be someone always having more than me. I will start looking at myself, setting goals ‘Where I want to be in 5 years, in 10 years and make my goals my own competition” Starting from there. I mean I just love it when my friends win! I need to go on a vacation with my friends in the future and I don’t want to pay for them.
For real, Ride or die huh! That’s really cool