Where do I start, Rough week, But good vibes.
Let's make this a diary/ Log book of the week. Since I got nothing on top of my head and nothing much to rant on.
This week wasn't that hectic as I expected. Exams has been good. I can feel the luck that God blessed me with and catching up with friends that I haven't spoken for ages.
Starting off with what I want in the next 3 years in terms of where I want to be and what kind of a person that I want to be.
Starting here! Okay.. Man! Hard to connect thoughts into words cause phew! Okay! Okay! God has really play a massive part in my life. I couldn’t be more grateful. I swear that the only reason why I went to church is to be grateful and feel the presence of hope. Few months ago, I remember me being depress and this thought on my brain just pops up! Instead of just staying at home every Sunday, why not just go to church and be extremely grateful of what I have and just keep walking until you see the light at the end of the tunnel. Honestly, to anyone that read this! It is true that success and failure are neighbours, it’s easy to say, “Yeah I will try this too”, but honestly man it’s tough! Remember there were days that I thought to myself “Man I don’t want to do this anymore” or even thinking of dropping out but after getting the job I wanted, my LUCK CHANGED. Honestly! My employer just proposed a project for me to work on, I found a place in Christchurch with 2 searches and everything that I studied came up on the exam. Luck plays such a huge factor in my life right now and I really DO appreciate it. One thing that God gave me right now is successful friends. All my friends have a job and man I am SO HAPPY. Part of my goal is having all my peers be successful and it seemed like everything came true.
So Plan NEXT YEAR! I REALLY REALLY WANT a job after I graduate and to be HONEST! The plan is to be Super Proactive! I will start finding a job starting May 27 and yeah keep trying essentially! Holy I really never felt so great! For people that say I tried too but nothing popped up! I mean, YOU create your own luck so, if anyone couldn’t say they try harder than me, they don’t have a right to complain. Back to it, I really want to work at EasiYo! The manager loves me and me loving yogurt, really want to go back there after graduation and start working there. Really don’t know how it will turn out? But I will try. The trying part is gonna suck! But ya know, failure tasted better than nothing.
That is the plan so far. Dream destination EasiYo. But would still apply for everything and everywhere I knew. So, in terms of the person I want to be. I am pretty happy of how am I being myself lately. The one thing I am thinking is, should I get rid of the humour in me? One of my peers told me that she is jealous of this trait I have in me because apparently, people likes you automatically. Hearing that and knowing what I experienced is that, the “white girl vibe" could never be replicated in a guy. Tell you what, I have a lot of people not taking me seriously and it slightly annoys me. Not that I care, but just the fact that it happens, just “pisses me off? Again, not that I care”.
Reminiscing of the person that I truly am, I loves expressing how I feel when I feel the vibe (whether if I am feeling Happy or Sad etc), so changing that part of me is not a part of my agenda! I will probably keep it. I mean people that truly know me treat me the way I want to be treated; and for the clowns, I am not your stupid opinion so I am good!
Feel like most of my posts are roughly the same. Do not really care and oh! Random, met this girl today sitting beside me in the library. I mean why would you rhetorically asked "Where is the best place to get food in campus", Come on man 'what do you mean'.
Anyways, she kinda looked like this one girl that I used to date back in high school. Not a huge deal, just a fun little fact about today. But man she stayed in the library since 12pm and its 8pm now. Thought I am the only one that works hard. Loving the subtle asian traits I guess.
New Year Goals/ Resolutions?
Get a full-time job right after/ before graduation
Always be myself
Get my full licence
Be with the people I want to be with
Inspire people (Gonna start with my family and friends)
That’s really it I guess? Gotta grind when everyone is not grinding! Really Really tired but screw it! I never go soft! I have to put up the work that I myself am proud with.
